Thank you for sharing this deeply personal story. Mother to a 5 year old here- for me I became a new person, I kept the pieces of me that mattered and got new ones and I never I missed the old ones. I think you will always find room for the parts of you that truly matter, and as you said, we constantly evolve. So there is no saying what you may become in the kindergarten, grade school, middle school age of your child.